Stare it in the Face

Failure is a scary thing. No, you know what I take that back. Failure due to lack of effort isn't scary because by that point you've stopped caring anyway so the failing doesn't hurt so bad. You just kinda brush it off and think 'well whatever' because it didn't really matter to you in the first place. On the other hand, when you put a true effort into something you've not only invested time, but, you've also invested feeling and in essence you've invested a part of yourself. Your being is now somewhat connected to that task, or whatever it may be, that you've set out to do. 

So you go into something thinking 'I've got this' and you start and somewhere along the line you realize that you might have been wrong at the beginning when you set out. Your abilities are not quite matching up to the idea of success that you had at the start. It may be that you over estimated your abilities, or that you stretched yourself too thin, but nonetheless, it's not working out and you start to panic. As you realize that failure is in sight there's a nervousness that sets in. You feel it in your stomach and your brain never stops, and you're worrying non stop the the point that it's exhausting. You want so badly not to disappoint. Not to disappoint yourself, your parents, your teachers, whoever really. It's an emotional thing. 

There's also the question of when to accept defeat. When you're not starring down the face of failure it's easy to say that we should never give up, fight to the end, never accept failure. This presents the question though, is it more respectable to stop before you fail and come back and try again or to stick it out and hope for the best in the end? I'm not sure if there really is a right answer. If you come back and try again there's always that memory in the back of your head reminding you of the past. Some may say that that memory is motivating, but for others it may just bring back that feeling of nervous panic. Again, I don't think there's really a right answer here. And you know, isn't that just life. Some people seem to have everything going right for them all the time and the idea of failure is never really on their radar. Others seem to stare into the face of failure more often. I guess everyone had their own trials to face and it's probably unfair for me to judge but still.